Thursday, February 22, 2007
Scared Again
Wow - for exactly one week I felt great. Just puttering about, running small errands and doing a little of this and that. Coming off the Tindamax and taking a break was a good LLMD idea.
Yesterday evening as I was sitting on my couch, I could see from my window that the FEAR was driving around the corner and pulling into my driveway. I knew the fear was here. The fear just sat out there in the cold and did not come into the house.
I knew it was only a matter of time.
When I woke up this AM, the fear was in my bed. It was 6AM. I knew the fear would just mock and make faces at me so I took a second Benadryl, something I never do. The full on herxes were there too...in the neck and the base of the skull. I slept pretty well for the next 4 hours. Each time I woke, the fear told me things to be scraed of.
I tried not to listen. I responded "You are part and parcel of the Babesia." "Stop trying to intimidate me." "I will feel happy, joyous and free once again, just not right now."
I got up and made some phone calls, including my LLMD, to see what the next step will be. Mepron and Artemisia? I took a Theanine to find calm.
Yesterday evening as I was sitting on my couch, I could see from my window that the FEAR was driving around the corner and pulling into my driveway. I knew the fear was here. The fear just sat out there in the cold and did not come into the house.
I knew it was only a matter of time.
When I woke up this AM, the fear was in my bed. It was 6AM. I knew the fear would just mock and make faces at me so I took a second Benadryl, something I never do. The full on herxes were there too...in the neck and the base of the skull. I slept pretty well for the next 4 hours. Each time I woke, the fear told me things to be scraed of.
I tried not to listen. I responded "You are part and parcel of the Babesia." "Stop trying to intimidate me." "I will feel happy, joyous and free once again, just not right now."
I got up and made some phone calls, including my LLMD, to see what the next step will be. Mepron and Artemisia? I took a Theanine to find calm.
# posted by Lala @ 7:52 AM 
