Lyme Blog

It is that time in the morning when I surrender to the fear and have tearful intervals. There you are Babesia. I see you more clearly now that the IV Rocephin is on hold.

I think I will continue with my painting today, even if through tears. The willingness is there and so is the energy. I am grateful for that.

Curled and crying. A process. A journey from self back to self. A power greater than self. A power greater than this illness.

I feel that my body wants to lay in bed today. I wish fear would get up and get on with its day so that I can enjoy the largeness.

Today is one week without the IV Rocephin. The Mepron/ Zith continues with the Babesia. Aspects of the Buhner protocol also remain. I continue to taper back on the non-essential herbs and give my organs a rest and detoxify.

Yesterday, I consulted with my chelation MD and my LLMD. I want to start cold laser therapy in May. My LLMD is excited about. My chelation MD said to careful of too many frequencies, since I am also listening to audio frequncies.

My LLMD did not see the confict, since one is sound and the other is light.

The earth's revolution brings those of us in this part of the world closer to the sun during this time of the year.

Where am I?

In an attempt to absorb the light and warmth of the subtle movement, I am listening to my audio cd.s by Belleruth Naparstek: Combat Depression and Relieve Stress. They are helpful during these times of acute fear.

Yesterday, I listened to the audio CD I received with frequencies for my spinal issues (C1, C2, C3, L3, L4, L5, S1, S3) , Lyme and Babesia.

I was not ready to listen to Lyme or Babesia because there are many changes in my treatment and I wanted to wait before any major Herxes were to arrive on the scene.

I (1) stopped the IV Rocephin a few days ago, (2) am doing some detoxification/ Spring Cleaning and (3) am tapering back on non-essential herbs in my protocol. Let my body adjust to these changes before any new stimulus.

Track 10 was mislabeled. I was listening to Lyme and not my S3, as I thought.

I woke up this morning with some of my usual Herx symptoms: achiness in tailbone, big toe and stiffness in my right hand. "WOW", I thought, "Could the frequencies work?"

I am hopeful. I will conduct my own experiment and see if I herx when I am ready to listen to the Lyme and Babesia frequencies. More will be revealed.

I was at my local CVS picking up a Mepron and Azithromycin script. The
pharmacist told me that the Mepron was on order.

He asked me which part of Italy my family is from. "Sicily", I responded. "Me too", he replied. "Where?" I asked. "Melilli, we have the same last name".

"Oh, you must be from Middletown, CT...that is where they all settled. We have a cousin there." I mentioned the name. He said "Yes, there are five. One is my grandfather". "Our cousin is husband to Barbara and father to two daughters" , I added. "Yes, Angela is my mother", he chuckled.

And there it was, my pharmacist is my third cousin. He was in Melilli 2 years ago and I was there 1 year ago. Here is a photo of Mount Aetna from that trip.

I live in a city where there are more than 1/2 of a million people. These odds are rather slim.

Another gift, courtesy of the co-infection Babesia.

I recently started using essential oils, after a recommendation from a friend. The oils are from Wisom of the Earth and the Lyme protocol includes a layering of myrrh, laurel, marjoram and manuka oils on the spine. It feels like my skin just drinks it up.

My LLMD suggested some spring cleaning during this last visit. Taper back on many of the herbs, NOT the Buhner Protocol. Detox Detox Detox. Came off the IV Rocephin after 6 months.

Felt great for 3 days. The cool air was blowing through my being. Completely self assured and full of love. I am the ME I want o be.

Today, something is back and lurking around. I feel fearful, anxious and overwhelmed by tasks to be done. I woke up and started praying immediately Om Tare Tuttare Ture Soha to the Buddha Tara.

This afternoon, I am moving around those emotins and continuing my day.

I have not been here in a while. So many things happening with my progress.

Right now, I am listening to my frequencies CD...Track 2 - Dopamine.

My LLMD said this week in our appointment: "I don't understand why we are stuck in Newtonian Physics when we have Quantum Physics available to us for healing". The path I am on in this Lyme journey is leading me towards using energy for healing.

Although I do not comprehend the scientific principles, I have a tremendous amount of faith. I sent a voice sample to Lauren at V.A.S.T.
and through the octaves of my voice, she was able to tell me so many things about the state of my physical body.

Without a blood or urnie test, the voice analysis showed specifics to the heavy metal toxicity, my neurtransmitters, how my organs were functioning, the state of my musculo-skeletal system, how severe the Lyme is, along with other viruses. Most of this information, I have documented by either past blood or urine exams. The high incidence of antimony and mercury, for example were on the results, as was Thalassemia Minor, a minor anemia which people with Mediterranean ethnicity have. Also on the results were viruses common to people with Lyme. Am I impressed?

YES!!! All this without any invasive testing.

I feel that I am in the midst of a spiritual awakening. Fear and anger are a part of it too.

Although my values were in a good place before I started treating the Lyme, I know that I was attached to people, places and things. The more experiences I could add to my resume, the more ME I was. Today, I see the only thing which is not illusory is love and compassion.

Today, I can say I am still ME in the throes of this. I have fear and anxiety every day it seems. But I do not have to run. I can look at the Lyme and Babesia and say "there YOU are".

I am grateful for treating the Lyme and Babesia while it is still at this grassroots level...in its infancy stage. How else could I be blessed to meet such courageous angels...all the LLMDS and practitioners who risk their licenses and careers? And the folks who are in the trenches with me. Where else could I have found these extraordinary people? These are the people who I want to associate with for the rest of my life. They are FOR REAL.

I have learned to rely on other methods of healing, away from traditional, Western medicine. I have learned to rely on Mother Earth, again.

And faith, what else do I have but faith that this will pass? I really have no choice but to believe it or I die.

SO what is different? I have lost the urge right now to say anything about Lyme or Babesia and that is okay. Just wait. Patience.

The only thing which is very different is the Pleo-remedies which my LLMD wants me to do for 2 weeks, every other month.

I am sticking with the Resveratrol, Cat's Claw and Andrographis from the Buhner protocol. Not very motivated to increase the dosage on it. Just listening to my body, basically.

And it is saying lay down and say good night.

This morning there was fear everywhere. By this afternoon, after some hypnosis work, I felt much better. Positive interactions are important in all this.

Not posting much these days. Up for a few days then way down. Crying to having my life back. Crying to have the fear and anxiety taken away.
Crying.

on the oils. Yes!

I woke up at 5ish this AM...Mepron issues...but I did not feel too tired. Day 7 of mepron.

For the 1st time in over a year, I am just laying in bed, reading and writing....I am not SCARED!!! This is something I used to LOVE doing and could not because the Lyme was always laying up against me taunting me. In general, I wake up too scared.

SO, I read the Buhner book again and again....because i cannot retain one THING. Stephania is my next purchase - I have had floaters in my vision since I was a teen.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
Hey, just back off one capsule of the knotweed if you have GI./ diiarrhea issues - see page 118 on contraindications!!!!!!!!!!!

I talked to my niece last night and she is a DIFFERENT person than just 2 weeks ago. She has added Nystatin to her protocol. Bubbly and giddy like a kid. She joined an online chat for Lyme Teens. She has been talking to a 14 yr old boy in NJ who hasn't been to school in 2 yrs. He composes music. And she told me of an 18 ys old girl who has trouble with suicidal urges. This is REAL.

I think that my brain, spirit and mind grew alongside and intertwined with these illnesses. Any neuroses I had were food for these bacteria and in turn, the bacteria, defecated them all over my neuropathways. This has created a tremendous blockade in perception, cognition and emotinal release.

There are 1,000s of people in the midst of this.

I took my regular herbs and supplemenets this AM. An hour later, I did my IV Rocephin.

I juiced some beets and veggies which I drank with Cortef, Azythromiacin. I then took Mepron with coconut oil. (I have only been n the Mepron/ Azith for 3 days now).

Then I had a protein drink with fruit, hazelnut milk, flax seeds and eggs.

About 5 minutes later, I vomited everything. Dramatic with the beet color.

This has never happened. The only new things are the Azyth and Mepron.

I'm stumped as what to do now. DO I retake the Mepron, Azyth and Cortef or just leave well enough alone for today?

Was that red splash across the mock terra cotta tile a reminder of where I am in life?

I started treatment for the Babesia yesterday - Mepron and Azythrmiacin.

I spoke with my LLMD last night and told him that I am herxing again. He asked if I could hang in there becuase he believes the IV Rocephin is still working if the herx is happening again. He laso ordered me some Azithromyacin to go with the Mepron (how cute is that?). He said that the Azithr. decreases the ability of the Babesia to be resistant to the Mepron. He said to hang on to the Artemisin yet. He also told me to do the 2 weeks of the Pleo Remedies (the German concoctions for clearing out neurtoxins) again.


I took the Mepron around 6 PM and could not sleep last night. Today, I took it in the AM.

Standing in line for a presription this evening, I became so rageful and angry at the girl standing 8 inches behind me who was yelling into her cellphone. I moved away from her toward the counter. I felt out of control with my own self.

I recognize what this is now. I used to feel this way in different situations...especially with activist work....and just think it was me. Now I know.