Tuesday, April 03, 2007
Die Off or Relapse Diemna
Does it even matter any more? Feel the foulness of something happening. Is the Mepron blasting through the Babesia and thus all the fear, tears, anxiety followed by foulness?
Or, is this a true blue relapse from being off the IV rocephin for a week now?
Does it matter? The attitude is foul and no amount of relaxation techniques will bring me joy. This is me right now. The tears have dried and the squinted scowl persists.
Today, I just want to stop denying that this is in me; stop pulling my self up to higher levels of spirit and existence. I only want to curse, cry and wave a fist "why?, "and why for so long?"
Or, is this a true blue relapse from being off the IV rocephin for a week now?
Does it matter? The attitude is foul and no amount of relaxation techniques will bring me joy. This is me right now. The tears have dried and the squinted scowl persists.
Today, I just want to stop denying that this is in me; stop pulling my self up to higher levels of spirit and existence. I only want to curse, cry and wave a fist "why?, "and why for so long?"
# posted by Lala @ 2:47 PM 
